UNCERTAIN AND PARANOID

My eyes blink tentatively,

Unknown danger lurks in the air, and I have to take care,

Lest I lose my only flare,

My mind craves understanding, any understanding,

How’d I get from uncertainty to paranoid?

My eyes blink again,

I can feel the sudden adrenaline,

A gush of fear flows to my spine,

Is this a note   of  failure or betrayal,

I crossed many roads, double crossed many foes,

Now I lay here still uncertain and paranoid.

My eyes blink probingly,

I dreamt of being priggish,

Now am bent,  clad in full blemish,

Even roses wilt someday,

Perhaps this one will be watered in time,

But my conscience is still uncertain and paranoid.

KENNEDY  KAGIRI